6.08.2011
Summer Idealism: a list.
6.05.2011
1.18.2010
I always kinda sorta wished I was someone else.
11.07.2008
Dear Robin, I am pleased to announce that you have been accepted for enrollment....
"Okay" ?
what the fuck does that mean, "Okay" ?
not even an 'ok, alright, whatever', that's a condescending "okaaaay" with the upturned, "why are you even telling me this" question mark at the end
the tone I didn't expect to hit me so hard
that left me so shakingly angry i couldn't calm down
even after grinding my teeth, and the gutural screams in the car on the way to the restaurant
where the girl behind the counter concentrated on the lip of her neon green visor, and gave me a free brownie
to make up for the fact that she couldn't meet my rigid eyesockets with a complimentary smile.
I didn't know you could dissappoint me this much;
or that you had this much sway.
But seriously,
after years of wanting, work, applications, and scholarship bullshit
you can't say
"Congratulations"?
Most would try harder
for their oldest daughter.
9.10.2008
I don't know why we're created, but I know that I know why I'm dying
9.04.2008
Where the sunshine slows
8.28.2008
And nothing really changes but the weather, and the way people talk.
my brain is too FULL of NOTHING
mood swings, stress, and paranoia are killing my sanity
and i'm about ready to quit this
but i'm kept busy, and don't notice, most of the time
i'm just worried about what happens when i do
notice, that is
how can a head be so empty when it's "learning" so much?
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